Free Run

I have fallen real hard... I cannot believe it.. after the front I put up.. it still hit me, harder than I ever thought... Unimaginable denial has got me very much, but I know the truth, this is for real.. deeper than I can think.. fear has got me on my grind and I can't function properly cos i am letting two odds decide what I want for myself Whatever will be will work out perfectly is what I chant in my head, but do i really believe in this shit? why the hell would we let a human being like us dictate the way you feel and how you should function emotionally? What is love? Love is punishment, it is bittersweet and it just sucks.. I am scared.. to fall and not look back or even the fear of being hurt is not seemingly possible... I need help...