Aii, can I jus start by saying that my life is right now drama intensified... Things rnt going as planned n honestly I do not know how the fuck to deal with it... Series of terrible happenings n tz jus pretty much amazing how I can smile n act like m very fine... I AM NOT FINE.. I dunno how to be.. I can't tell yu how I feel right now, I've been having mega pep talks n trust me dey haven't made me feel any better...
First things first....... My love life's a MESS.... I think this is the destroyer of every other sphere of my life... I wonder hu the fuck created love... Love is my greatest enemy... Cos wen m hurt, vri other thing jus feels bad... This is like series of heart break, how many hearts can one possibly have dat wuld b broken many times n over.. *sigh*... This year only One major and two almost! Well we can say that this only happens cos I am a spooner... X_X.. Why can't this crazy silly , annoying n SLOW right guy come already! Missed pleny opportunities dat I myt have felt was (is) the right one buh den, if it(was) truly mine, he'd be with me ain't it? LOVE is the beginning of my issues... Falling in and out.. This heart has too many wounds.. Truth be told I am honestly tired n scared... I am a pathetic, hopeless romantic... Goshhh... This is me.. Force me not to change cos it wuld be bad.... On this bike I am critically thinking of ways that I can make myself better and someone who's really smart told me few days ago that ppl act based on the impression they have about yu.. So 1st, I shall hide my emotions... Kill my feelings, be numb to the things of love.. I'd not even near it! Then... Be the best friend of myself... A new me.... Effing new... Almost purrfect in the eyes of vrione, call it pretence IDGAF, I call it strategy... Wen derz nobody with me, I shall express my self.. No more... No more... Not anymore at all.... I am fucking frustrated and tired....
OMG! You're here...I've been looking for you. Give me your # or email, let me declare my love for you.
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