That moment of weakness

Here I am, counting minutes, waiting for the best time to leave because hope has left me... That moment of weakness when you want to cry without control and cry so much till you stop... that moment of weakness when you just wanna give up the fight and settle for less that moment of weakness that you wanna talk but the words fail you inconsistently that moment of weakness where you wouldn't mind being stuck on stupid I have had the moment a countless times but this is by far the deepest... Never have I felt this way... Never.. Here I am, waiting till I know I can walk freely and not feel down or sad, cos this is new to me... Here I am, waiting for the time it will get better because hope told me it is hopeless... I am no longer hopeful, I'm taking my broken heart with me and finding a way to get me a new life... Every time seems to get harder even when you feel like you are immune to heartbreak, but believe it or not, Lie to yourself and convince yourself its not, deep down in your heart, you are crying and that moment of weakness has failed you.. Would i give up on love? NO? YES? I really cannot say.. all I know is that Hope has given up on me... Hope is for the strong, I am not strong... Someday, maybe soon, maybe not I'd look back on this and smile.. but for now... That moment of weakness when you want to cry without control and cry so much till you stop...